thnks gals for the birthday plan...eh...i know some people are just so bitch...let's throw away their phones...wakaa-*evil laugh* anyway i know you all spend alot...but really thnks... =) hmm...upcoming should be celebrating linda's birthday..but guess what wad i predicted was right... =( wad de...

hmm...upcoming events....i guess it's a long long list...

1. bulletin for term 3
2. portfolio for term 3
3. documentation panel for term 3
4. national day celebration (i hated this)
5. costume hunt for yr end concert (hate it)
6. mega crazy practice for yr end concert
7. design of background for yr end concert
8. math assignment(wonder how is the group one coming up...i doubt they did anything)
9. pui san curriculum integration assignment
10. practicum (this is the killer)
11. set up learning corners for todds (the stupid classroom is so small how to set?)
12. lesson plans

i guess there's more...just cant remember at this moment.. what a life... =(

miss baby lots...couldn't slp recently...donnoe for wad stupid reason...ah~! i just hated it..doing closing today.. =(

7/29/2009 07:49:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y

7/19/2009 09:50:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y

lies?truth?
believe?trust?
respect?
u in my shoe?i in ur shoe?
i love you, you love me?
thinking about you?thinking about me?
missing you?missing me?


ya...whatever...anyway it seems i did everything wrong..the way you phrase like i shouldnt have ask u to begin this whole thing together with me 2 yrs back.. it seems lyk i have drag you into a night mare..? whatever..you keep insisting that you wont wanna say break up.. why not ?its lyk 5 times you told me before...including this one time not considering it less or more? anyway i donnoe whats really in your mind..ya u will say "i also donnoe wads really in your mind too" ya as if i got the energy to talk to you at nite? ya i noe you got stress...i cant help and i don understand...yes i got stress its the same u cant help too...mine is practical..so is yours.. keep insisting that i lost for topic to talk..keep insisting i have an affair...what are all these nonsense...if i wanna have an affair...i should have done it during the point when u mentioned the 5 times of break up..

i don bare to give this up...always telling me my future depends on you..you will prove it to me...but be more sensible... future is not for anyone..but urself...yes you wanna prove..but action speaks louder then words...yes i know you are in army...you are stress...so am i..

if you think i drag you to hell..just let me know...i wont bother to say break up..but it seems like you are also not bothered...you can busy...why cant i..? u emphasizing on waiting? thn u? what have you done? telling me how much u miss me and love me...all this stuff... who knows it might be all just a lie...? im not trying to insist that you are lying...just feel u are facing your ups and down...i also wad...

say i got my frends can already...again be more sensible..i work long hours a day...i only see u once a week...you think during the days without u im alone? i float here and there lyk nth? i nid frends too...u said u give mi freedom? but do you really seriously willingly to give? or ur mouth just say and do another thing?

ya u can say im always the one who rise my voice...actually i din...im loosing my voice..do u noe? how much work i nid to do..do u noe? i screaming all day long...do u noe?? ya u are also..but im in this line for lyk so long... ah...~! fuck larz..what ever...you wanna get mad over all this that i wrote..go ahead...i jus got no where to vend my anger thats all...

think in all sorts of method you wan...anyway im not bothered to celebrate my birthday anyway...feeling its not worth and no point...

7/07/2009 10:55:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

alright its a sad post again..

me and still me?
me+you= us?
you and still you?

what will it be?
well...had a argument with baby again...gonna separate for 2 months...yes again...both tired of waiting for calls...msgs... missed those company by each other...missed the hugs and kisses... missed everything we did together before ns...well i noe i had tried...just feel its not enough...can be better still...but baby is feeling tired..so do i...for me im just a little...but yes that cant talk to him every nite..im really sorry abt that but the thing is im really tired and exhuasted after a long day work...now im working early shift..and alternate days i still have nite class till like 10? by the time im home i will be like dead on my bed already...yes and work stress is getting fuck...assignment is another killer...coming up lot more...

who is there to listen to me?
who is there to give me ideas when i needed most?
who is there to lend me a shoulder to rest when im tired?
who is there to lend me a shoulder to cry when i feel sad?
who is there to.......

yes baby u are the one...but life without really feels weird...when are coming back to me again?? i miss those days...mentally tired...wanna have a break...even on my birthday i got to go for class like till 10pm...that sucks.. decided to take a afternoon half day..but come to think about even i take also seems worthless...no one is there to celebrate...baby where are you? its our 2 yr anni remember?? baby.....

i feel so far away from u...

where are you baby?let mi noe pls...

feeling that im gonna break down and cry really soon...i cant take it already..holding back my tears every nite..talking to u but cant touch you...feels so distance.... i guess i have to grow.... in what ways? guess alot ba...

7/02/2009 10:50:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

6/28/2009 08:01:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

oh...now thn i realize actually some guys are just so "good" at the flirting skills...misses other gal but still can go out to "lure" other fishes...jus so look down on this kind of ppl...its just simply disgusting...YES DISGUSTING~!! i bet what u suffering its a lesson for u to learn...its actually good for u to go through all this now...u will learn...and HOPEFULLY you will...withdraw from this kind of ppl if u are surround by someone lyk that...being hi and bye frends would be a smarter choice...anyway...din slp last nite just to rush assignments...and ya manage to finish one set of powerpoint slides...which is already lyk killing me...oh gosh graduating from diploma is just like another few more months...happy yet fearful...=( anyway...din really enjoy or shall i say had enough of fun during this weekend...=( but manage to hang around, laugh around with my baby and frends...though was jus so simple was satisfied...but i just hope i can go back home abit later thn usual...but it seems i cant...anyway...shall request for it one day...took quite a number of photos...yes after so long..haha...enjoy...

5/17/2009 10:30:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

well...alittle update...currently piled with endless work...be it my dilpoma course...my retake of O...work...endless...so damn tired larz...a day of 24 hr don seems to be enough..=( anyway...can to make use of every min and every sec that i have to do work..oh gosh...sounds lyk....anyway diploma ending like in another few months time...but sometimes ppl don wanna cooperate to just attend class or meet up to finish the discussion abt the group project...it makes things drag and drag like no end...so so pissed alright...anyway...update soon...

5/13/2009 08:03:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

this message is esp for my dearest weilin....:
hey...u don always sound so sad in ur_____ okie?it seems like u in super great depression like that...so saddening larz...cheer up larz...u can't see mi online u can still messgae me larz...not as if you don noe my number..hahaha...i might be busy but i still miss you hoh...and of coz...i will definately reply ur msg asap.. =) but i donnoe and wonder if u will...haha....no offence...just wondering..haha...actually plan to make a trip over around august...but it seems due to the stupid H1 N1 thing lyk cant liao...but anyway...come back soon alright... =) take care...and pls pls pls..don fall sick so often okie..?


okie now here are some updates...saw lynn on thurs nite...hmm...she look super super shag larz...all thnks to the man i guess...endless work to be done.....same for me too...PTC coming...practicum coming...haiz...assignments due date...all almost due at the same time...got to ready make use of time and finish them already...=(.... well.. no new photos to upload...but will do it soon...=)

5/09/2009 09:43:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y

thank you for the past that you did everything...thank you for all the effort you have put in...it seems like throughout these whole year of relationship i didn't put in much effort...i didn't make the effort to make you happy..i didn't do what should a gf do...all its my fault...i know its torturing but pls let me prove it to you that the decision we make will not be the wrong one...we will make thing back to normal again right?

well all above are just my thoughts...whether will it be turning true i still having doubts...i don't know when you are gonna back out again...i don't know when you will say you wanna leave again...but whatever you say might not be affecting me anymore...i have my own thoughts too..money?is it the issue that is all about throughout the relationship?you think i ever complain anything about that?

anyway...saying all these now is just rubbish...
stop crying gal...you have to be strong...too much things for you to cry about already...
you don't wanna look like goldfish whenever you cry right?
you know your own eyes very well...
what a terrrible start of the day...

4/24/2009 04:01:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y

ystd night was terrible...it was your second time taking out the ring and its your third time teelling mi to give up and break up...the feeling sucks...but same i hold you back...i don bare to let go...i believe things will turn out better eventually...anyway we have agreed to separate for one month...after that one month we will try to understand each other more...we will try to make things back to normal right?? i really hope and pray hard things will become lyk wad it was after that one month..

4/22/2009 08:18:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y

is this wad u really wan??separate for a few months..how long is ur a few months? 6 months also a few months...12 months also can say a few months....i hate this...i hate all this feeling..i noe you will not come back to me when you come up with this decision...i noe u will forget abt mi though u keep saying you will remember...i can act to be strong...but inside me is not...it hurts really bad..will u still come back to me?will you ever look at me again with those beautiful eyes of yours...?will you still hold me tightly like wad you always did...?will you still remember those days we had?will you still remember those dishes i made for you...and i promise i will improve and make more for you?but now it seems like all are just gone in a split second..ah....~! its killing me.....


tears go away....go away...go away~!
baby come back...come back...pls~!
i really need you....really~!
but what about you?? what is going through your mind?can you tell me everything??

4/19/2009 07:17:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

4/05/2009 10:01:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

oh gosh wad a day....spend like a few hundred dollars within a few hours....first bought a DKNY watch...don say i go for branded hoh...its quite worth larz...coz before discount was lyk 250...after discount was 228...haha...though nt much...watch can last very long if it don give u problem.. =) haha...after that went facial...and its stupid i noe..but my face is really getting worse..but anyway i so silly to sign up a package with them that cost 600...=( but anyway...ppl only young once...so think abt it...okie larz...thinking that old also cant do all this... but cant afford to be so often doing that..im just a preschool teacher and the pay is like donnoe wad...heart pain sia...baby was looking at this nice watch that he wanted so bad...but i cant buy for him...sorry baby...i noe how u feel...but i will think of way to help u...no promise but i will try...=( hope that the bad days will be over soon...=(

3/04/2009 10:35:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

sigh* wad a weather... down with flu,sore throat and fever...given two days MC...so no work no sch for today...hahaha....soooo happy...and of coz no work for tml... =) anyway its like another few more days im leaving...so not bothered larz... baby is stress over lots lots of things...=( hope u will go through all these fast and take it clamly...

2/24/2009 06:42:00 PM; loves mi loves you .Y

2/22/2009 09:51:00 AM; loves mi loves you .Y